May

how interesting it has been.

Hosted Veli-matti, Gareth and Liisa, enjoyed every moment with them.
That night with Gareth still lingers in my head, of
how drunk I was, how many times I vomited, how we got home,
and how late we were home.
The stories ended somehow,
they're moving on.

This month I decided to avoid their calls,
that's how I end relationships.
Walking away silently, without a confession,
is always one of my things.
Suffer in phobia of phone calls now.

I feel like in the swirl again,
and every morning I wake up with an aim.
My mind is occupied with the words,
we once shared.

Tomorrow is 29th,
I wonder if I will see him tomorrow,
with him staring back and making that uncomfortable smile.